Flawed Design

I love those lyrics that I just cannot get out of my head.

For some reason, this song just sticks to me. And I'm finding I that while I don't exactly relate to it exactly as it is, some parts of it hit close to home. And I recommend that you go and find a copy of the song, it's very interesting - even just the way he sings it. I thank Kiri for pushing me in that direction.

No more updates for now, because I have school starting tomorrow (Oh, the horror of having nothing prepared!) and because we have borrowed Legend on DVD. I am going to watch that in bed, and marvel at how appealing Tom Cruise was before he got psychotically challenged. I shall instead, leave you with said lyrics, and I hope you enjoy.

Flawed Design - Stabilo

When I was a young boy
I was honest and I had more self-control

If I was tempted I would run
Then, when I got older
I began to lie to get exactly what I wanted
When I wanted it
- And I wanted it

Now, I'm having trouble differentiating between what I want
And what I need to make me happy
So instead of thinking I just stop before I have the chance
To contemplate the consequences of action

And I will turn off
And I will shut down
Burying the voices of my conscience hitting ground
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
The chemicals are restless in my head

'Cuz I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to
All the time

Yeah, I lie

And I don't even know it

Maybe this is all a part
Of my flawed design

And ever since I figured out that I could control other people
I've had trouble sleeping with both eyes closed
And if I asked permission, if I make sure it's ok
I promise I won't slip up this time, you can trust me
But never take advice from someone who just admitted to being devious
Who just confessed to treason
And I would ask that you never ask a question
That I cannot ask myself for it might dirty up your conscience

'Cuz I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to
All the time

Yeah, I lie

And I don't even know it

Maybe this is all a part
Of my flawed design

And how can you say those things
Why can't you just believe?
And how can you say those things and keep a straight face?
And how can you say those things
Why can't you just believe?
And how can you say those things and keep a straight face?

And I will turn off
And I will shut down
Burying the voices of my conscience hitting ground
And I will turn off
And I will shut down
The chemicals are restless in my head

'Cuz I lie
Not because I want to
But I seem to need to
All the time

Yeah, I lie

And I don't even know it

Maybe this is all a part
Of my flawed design

And if I could control it, maybe I could leave it all behind..

I wonder what my own flawed design is. I could write several albums-worth of songs on that, no doubt.