Monday, 1 October 2007

It Never Gets Easier.

At 11:55am on the 1st October, 2007, my darling Lucy-bun died in my arms.

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The tiny wee floppy eared bun was the first one that came up to me in the pet store, I knew she was mine. I had no idea what to call her; the shoebox she was stored in was for a pair of Nike shoes, called "Lucy". That was it. Since we had driven to the store in two separate cars, so mum took Bella home in her shoebox, and I drove Lucy. I talked to her the entire way home, and haven't stopped since.

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I worried about her all the time; Bella was so much bigger, and I was sure that my little Lucy was going to squeeze through the bars of her hutch! Lucy was tiny! I couldn't get over how small she was, or how delicate. But my two bunny girls adored each other, and would constantly snuggle and groom and flop.

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She was always the snugglier of the two buns, and would love to just lie on your lap. She is the only bunny I've ever known that gave out bunny kisses. She was always so gentle, still adored snuggling and exploring, and was prone to headbutt you if you got in her way. (Which sort of hurt, actually.)

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After discovering that she had been picked on and while looking after her horrible sores, we had kept her inside for the past two weeks. Lucy was adorable! She'd run to the bars to greet you, follow you around her cage and grunt at you when you picked her up.

Her sores had mostly healed, and she was doing fantastic; but I suppose it's really hard to know what goes on inside those tiny little bodies. Bunnies are resilient little creatures, so I had no idea that anything was wrong with her this morning.

She gave me her usual little squeak (a happy one!) as I put her out on the grass enclosure so she could run around, which she did as always. But a short time later, she had flopped to her side, and wasn't responding to anything. She couldn't stand, she couldn't hold her head up, and she looked terrible.

I gave her a little water, wrapped her in a towel and stayed with her - and she stopped breathing a while later. I have to say, this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, sitting with her, bawling and talking to her, not knowing what to say or do. But now my beautiful girl is gone, leaving me with another ache.

Rest in peace, my darling Lucy-bun. I'll remember you, always. And I'm so, so sorry.

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52 comments:

  1. Oh honey i'm so sorry to hear this! Little lucy was the cutest bunny that ever lived. I fell in love with her while reading your post and now i'm convinced i'll never love another bunny after her. Too adorable. She died happy though lyndy, her mommy was holding her and making it safe for her to go. You did an amazing job being her bunnymom and know that she is happy and running around in bunny heaven. I'm sending you so many hugs. I'll be thinking of you. I know how hard it is to lose a pet i'm so sorry you have to go through this *hugs*

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  2. I'm so so sorry, Aly. Big hugs.

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  3. :( I'm so sorry about Lucy. Big hugs. She was, apparently, well-loved. And gave big love, too, which is awesome.

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  4. I'm sorry about your bunny. She was so cute.

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  5. I'm so sorry Lucy died. It's never easy to lose a pet. She sounded like such a beautiful little character. *hug*

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  6. The same thing happened with Mocha. I'm so sorry. You probably know how much. If you need to talk, I'm here.

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  7. Oh hon, I'm soooo sorry...
    *BIG HUGS*

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  8. I'm so sorry to hear this :o(

    You have nothing to apologise for, you did everything right for her and gave her a beautiful happy life.

    Internet hugs for you and happy thoughts for your bunny.

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  9. :(

    So sorry to hear this!
    xx

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  10. HUGS - you poor thing !!! that is HARD

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  11. I'm sorry Alyndabear. ;( At least she wasn't alone and she knew you loved her.

    Snoskred

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  12. I'm so sorry - she sounds like a wonderful bunny :(

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  13. Sorry to hear it, Alynda. :(

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  14. oh honey i'm so sorry. losing a pet, like a daughter to some, can be so hard. I'm so glad you were able to be with her and hold her!

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  15. I'm so sorry, Aly...I wish I could give you a big hug right now...

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  16. I can't even imagine. I am so, so sorry. You are a wonderful bunny mom, and Lucy was lucky to have such an attentive and loving friend like you.

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  17. i am so sorry! i know how hard it is to lose a pet. i'm glad you were with her though.

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  18. My sympathies to you Alynda-dear. Sending all kinds of pet kisses your way.

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  19. sending ::hugs:: your way Alynda... i am so sorry to hear about Lucy. she was lucky to have you as a bunny mom and to have you with her in her last moments.

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  20. Oh babe, what can I say, I’m so sorry ?

    Seeya, Hugya, Luvya,

    *G*

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  21. love you mup
    she knew you loved her too - she was a beautiful happy bunny and you did everything for her (((Hugs)))

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  22. I am so very, very sorry for your loss. You have my deepest sympathies. Lucy passed away where she most wanted to be: with her Bunny Mama.

    Sending you lost of hugs from Canada ((hugs))

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  23. Oh no, what a shock to read this post. I thought, as I'm sure you did, she was going to be fine. From your post she sounds a lovely-charactered little bunny.

    {hugs} to you.

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  24. I'm so sorry. I'm glad you could be there with her.

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  25. I am so, so sorry... At least you were with her, I'm sure she took comfort from that.

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  26. Oh Alynda, life really can suck can't it? I'm so sorry that Lucy left you, but glad that you were able to be with her at the end. Thank you for sharing her with us.

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  27. Oh, I can't even tell you how sorry I am. I know how awful it is to lose your beloved pet, and sometimes there is just nothing for it. I am so sorry! More hugs here, too.

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  28. Oh, Aly, I'm so sorry. Your bloggy fans will all miss Lucy Bun, too!

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  29. I'm so sorry for your loss. *HUGS*

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  30. So sorry. I know this must be a blow for you. I'm sorry you had to go through that and I'm sorry also for Lucy, but it sounds as if it was pretty quick and at least you were with her. She has been a trooper. And you have done a wonderful job, so don't beat yourself up over something you couldn't help. Love and hugs to you...

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  31. She's so floppy! Sorry to hear that she's gone.

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  32. Oh honey, I am so sorry. Big hugs coming your way. ..::HUGS HUGS HUGS::.. and a few >> just in case.

    Love you girly,
    xox

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  33. Love you girl.
    You know where I am if you need anything.

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  34. Awww, poor lil' Lucy-bun. And poor you! :( HUGS!!! So sorry your little baby died. At least you can be happy by knowing that you gave her a loving home and that she had a happy life. Still, it's hard, I know. BIG HUG from California. Hang in there..

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  35. Oh honey, I'm so sorry to hear this. You poor thing.

    I know it is of little consolation, but at least you were with her. And she knew you were there holding her.

    Sending lots of long distance hugs.

    Hang in there.

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  36. aww... that's sad news. sending you big cyber-hugs.

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  37. aww..i'm so sorry to hear about your bunny. she sounded like the sweetest little pet ever. at least she lived a life full of love.

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  38. oh geez i am so so sorry. she was a cutie and they leave such indelible marks on us. i'm sure that her last moments were peaceful in your arms knowing she was safe there. i'm glad you were holding her and there for her. it's hard to watch but i've been thankful when one of my bunnies died i was holding him and when my dog died i was holding him and i felt like at least they were able to receive a little comfort from me in the end. it's hard to watch but know that you loved her and took good care of her. lots of hugs from california.

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  39. Oh, Aly! I am so, so sorry!

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  40. This is the saddest post every! I am so sorry to hear about your little Lucy! Big internet hugs for you.

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  41. oh sweety I´m soooooooooo terribly sorry!!!She was such a cute bunny and I´m sure she had the best life a little bunny could have because you cared with so much love for her!!!Big bear hug coming your way!!!!!

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  42. Ah Ally, so sorry. It isn't easy to let a pet go, especially when they are so sick that you don't know whaaat to do. Rest easy knowing that though holding her was one of the hardest things you've ever done it also made a huge difference to her.

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  43. Awww... I'm very sorry about your bunny. Big hug to you. :(

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  44. Love, I am so sorry.

    :(

    xxx

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  45. *hugs*

    Not that it will make you feel any better, but tiny things (kids as well as animals) just maintain the status quo right up to the last moment, then take a precipitous dive. You couldn't have known. At least you were with her.

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  46. I can't believe I missed this post! I'm so sorry about Lucy. That's terrible. I hope you're doing ok...

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  47. I am so sorry to hear about poor Lucy! How lucky she was to have such a wonderful "mother" who cared so much for her.

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  48. I just now read this, I am really sorry about Lucy. :( She was such a cute bunny.

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