Well embryo, you're officially in my uterus. 'Sup? People might think I'm strange to be talking to you as if you're real, but you're real.. to us. Today was the transfer, which wasn't particularly pleasant, I'll be honest. (Is there ever a pleasant time to be had when a speculum is inserted up your lady parts?)
Seeing my super awesome husband tottering around in a surgical cap and gown was the highlight of my day - but he got his own back by snapping a horrendous photograph of me, which I'll share with you because I'm cool like that.
(Sorry for the dodgy photograph, that's what happens when nervous husbands are on photo duty.)
Unfortunately, your fellow embryo friend stopped developing yesterday, so this is it: you're our one and only. I think I'm going to call you our little miracle. Maybe we were only meant to get this far with you. No pressure or anything.
I'll spare you the gory (& slightly uncomfortable) details, but before we knew it, you were zooming up the catheter and that was that. They checked the tube to make sure you weren't being sneaky and hanging out there, but nope... you're with me. We ungowned, laughed giddily, and we were done. Easy as pie.
I have to admit, wee embryo, that I waddled my way back to the car with my knees touching. Yes, I had that irrational fear that gravity would have you fall straight out of me and end up on the sidewalk somewhere. We had a nice chat, you and I, on the drive home - though I should apologise for the foul language. Idiot drivers, you know.
Anyway, that's about it from me. I'm going to be busy resting up and making my womb as comfy and enticing for you as possible. I may even bribe you.. can I get you something? Water? Cookies? A car? You name it, I'll do it. Have fun in there, miracle embryo. I'll be here, googling every symptom and praying you'll stick around.
Signing off,
Aly
This post made me smile! :) I love that you are talking to your little miracle! I truly hope it settles in nice and comfy. It's going to be a long, boring 10 months, little miracle! Get cozy!
ReplyDeleteUm, I think I might be in love with you. ;) this post is hilarious and I like funny people. way to make light of a crappy situation. Hope your miracle keeps growing nd implants deep.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking happy, sticky embie thoughts for you!!! Come on, baby! You can do it!!!
ReplyDeleteBeen thinking of you all night and all morning. That little embryo has a cheering squad literally spanning the earth.
ReplyDelete=) Praying that your little embryo is making itself cozy!
ReplyDeletePrayers that everything goes well and little embryo-baby makes himself/herself at home!
ReplyDeleteStick embryo stick!!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you made it to transfer day and are feeling better. I'll keep my fingers crossed tightly that this little one sticks around.
ReplyDeleteYay! Fingers crossed! (I'll let YOU do the legs crossing part...) ;)
ReplyDeleteI love this post! I'm thinking of you and hoping and praying that this little thing does what it's supposed to do!
ReplyDeleteGo embryo go! Fingers crossed this little bean implants and turns into your take-home baby!
ReplyDeleteAly, I am sending every good thought within reach your way! I am so hopeful for you and your family!! :)
ReplyDeleteThis is one of the sweetest things I've read in a long time.
ReplyDeleteSending super-sticky thoughts to you and your little miracle.
aw thinking all sorts of happy thoughts for you guys, come on little baby!
ReplyDelete*SO* hope this is "it"!!! I think we're all collectively holding our breath that this is your miracle. Best of luck! -Eve in Colorado
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your little miracle... grow little one grow :)) I always have that fear about gravity... and can't bear to go to the toilet for hours.. just in case !! xoxo
ReplyDeleteBest wishes! Hoping the best for you and that you get some amazingly awful symptoms soon. :)
ReplyDeleteSending lots of good thoughts your way!
ReplyDeleteYou sound so positive, and that's the right mentality you need. Fingers, toes, and every appendage crossed for you guys!!
ReplyDeleteI have just read all these posts in a row, and I am sending all sorts of hugs and charms and good luck and baby vibes your way! Love you, my dear!
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well done, in the end I only had one embryo left too. I lol'ed at the gravity comment cause for 6-8 days I barely moved off the couch praying for the miricle to stick. Keep talking to it and thinking pregnant, it only takes ONE you have it right where you need it.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to know what helps or hurts in infertility. But I'll share- my ivf in 2009 looked so great at the beginning: 30 mature eggs- 28 fertilized- day 3- 20+ looking good. Day of transfer (day 5)- all looked bad. All. Only 4 were near the cell number and appearance but all were not what they wanted. Disorganized... SOmething- I don't recall. I sobbed while they put 2 in. The next day they said there was nothing to freeze. I was devastated. That ivf took all our savings. I'd been counting on frozen transfer options. Done. Over. And then, a few weeks later, I nearly fell off my chair- positive pregnancy test. My son just turned 2.5. It happens.
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