To My Infertile Friends on Mothers Day

Getting my official negative pregnancy test on Mother's Day has been the hardest part of this IVF process so far. If you've followed my journey, you'll know that I was trying to numb the pain by being ridiculously prepared - but for all my efforts, it still hurts. It hurts a lot. I feel like I've failed, again, let everybody down.

I was driving home late at night a few days ago when I heard a song. I hadn't cried yet, haven't officially acknowledged the fact that this cycle is over. I sang along, top of my lungs, pretending to be Adele, and realised halfway through that I had tears streaming down my face. It's time to move on.

So to all my people, to everyone who's hurting today, to my online & blogging friends who are struggling, or have gone through disappointment or heartache, to the incredible support system of incredible women who are selfless enough to lend support to others in the midst of their own sadness, to those who have graduated and are expecting great things of their own, to the wonderful ladies in my life {love you mum/nan} ...  this one is for you.

Somewhere between the end and the point where we begin,

There's a fire burning brightly, that's found it's way to dim.

When the feeling's gone, shine on, shine on and on to something new,

It's long and overdue, I will remember you.

Shine on, shine on and let the others see

You've got your victory - will you remember me?

So I'll take just one more step in front of you,

For I am with you still - and you're not alone.

Shine on, shine on and on to something new,

It's long and overdue, I will remember you.

Shine on, shine on and let the others see

You've got your victory - will you remember me?