This time last year, my period arrived. That usually wouldn't be a momentous or blogworthy event, but it signalled the failure of our first IVF cycle - and brought about a whole stack of emotions. There's no great time for a BFN {big fat negative} but on Mother's Day? It was pretty darned painful.
If you'd told me then that in twelve months, I'd be somebody's mother, I wouldn't have believed you. It was too raw, too unthinkable. What a difference this past twelve months has made to our lives. It's amazing how quickly my heart just exploded with love - it grew from the positive pregnancy test, to the scans, to the heartbeat, and when she made her early arrival into the world. I'm learning new things about her, and about myself, every day.
Today was bittersweet. My first as a mother; my mother's first as a grandmother; and our first without our Nanna. I know she'd be happy that Georgia is here with us today; helping us to grieve & to keep on living. It was a tough day.
Big love and hugs to all of my mama & soon-to-be-mama friends, but also to those still on their journeys to motherhood. I know first hand just how hard this day can be, and I'm thinking of you and sending hope your way.
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Yay for more pictures! So cute!
I agree that during IF, you never believe it really realize that literally in one year you can be holding your baby! But it happens all the time. I wish everyone good luck too!
Thank you. I broke my social media avoidance rule today to read this because I knew you would post something that includes HOPE. I went for my CD 24 blood work today to see whether Clomid worked again. I try to stay positive but it's so hard sometimes, and today especially it feels raw.
I'm so happy that this year you have the happy Mother's Day you deserve! All the best.
Happy 1st Mother's Day!
I just love that picture of Georgia covered in paint (that's the creative part of me talking). I am so very happy that you have your little girl on this Mother's Day.
mind blowing how much can change in just a year. and how fast a year can sometimes go when looking back. so happy you have sweet georgia. happy mothers day!
This brought tears to my eyes, Aly. So much can change in a year. I'm glad that this year has brought you Georgia. What a beautiful, sweet girl she is!
Yep. Happy belated 1st Mother's Day :) And I am SUPER impressed with Georgia's handprints - when I tried to do this recently all I got was a messy baby and a purple smudge in her baby book!
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