We have days where everything is great & she is her normal, chattery self. And we have days where I have NO idea what's going on inside her head, and nothing I do can make her happy or content.
We have days where little things worry me - is she eating enough, is she sleeping enough, are those dry patches on her legs normal, why do her feet look red, is she supposed to be rolling from back to front yet.. the list goes on and on. And we have days where I'm 100% ok with just going with the flow and letting her be herself.
We have days where I panic and wonder whether I've missed reading something in the motherhood manual: what am I supposed to do if THIS happens, or THAT happens? And we have days where I feel really confident about my decisions.
We have days where walking in the pram is a dream & she's all smiles and snoozes. And we have days where walking in the pram is the worst thing in the world and she will screech and sob the entire time.
We have days where I think how amazing it would be to throw all my energy into this one little person & focus on her as an only child. And we have days where all I want is to be able to give her a sibling one day, so that I can watch her grow alongside another little person.
All I know is that she's awesome. She is her own little person, very different to lots of other babies I've met in the last few months, and I like that. She's a sweetheart & we love her to bits.
I think all of your worries are totally normal, especially for a first time mom. Obviously I have no experience but I've seen my mom give advice to my cousins as they have had babies and I think what you're feeling is pretty normal. It's hard! And Georgia is so sweet, I can hardly imagine her screaming her head off! :) xoxo
ReplyDeleteYES! 100% agree with all of this! Your sweet girl is just beautiful and you're an amazing mom!
ReplyDeleteShe's beautiful! And all of your worries are perfectly normal. I remember worrying about some pretty ridiculous things after my daughter was born. It does get easier with time. I promise. :) From ICLW...
ReplyDeleteI worry about the same things. I used to worry that he would never turn his head to the left because he favored turning his head to the right. Ridiculous. Right now I worry about crawling...how do I know when he's ready?! It's always something, but I always have to step back and remember to cherish this moment!
ReplyDeleteI can't believe that she is 20 weeks already!! It sounds like you all are doing great. :-)
ReplyDeleteShe has the sweetest face and such hair! I was bald until I was three years old.
ReplyDeleteMotherhood doesn't come with a manual, unless you consider maternal instincts a manual. Then that manual is already memorised and never wrong. You have a beautiful daughter. Good luck in motherhood!
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful little girl!
ReplyDeleteHi, I'm here from ICLW. You sound SO normal, and honestly, way more relaxed about things than I was at 20 months (I was a fruit loop until E hit six months, and felt I didn't really feel confident as a mum until he was 16 months or so. But since then it's been great.)
ReplyDeleteI'm in Canada, but my husband is Australian (born in Sydney) and I lived in Canberra for a few years. Nice to read an Aussie blog. I've just been in the U.K. for the last four months, where we've been trying to avoid getting into conversations with any Brits about the cricket...
Georgia is just beautiful!
T.
Sorry- that should have said 20 weeks. Should have proofread more carefully, but the jetlag is getting to me!
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Hi from ICLW!
ReplyDeleteOh my, she is too adorable! I imagine it comes with the territory of working so hard to have her? Then again, there is no amount of reading that can ever prepare you for a baby, at least that is what most people say, so you do the best you can then you let nature take it's course:)
Hi from ICLW... Georgia is beautiful. And yes your mommy fears sound about right. My oldest is 4 and there are still days where I want to scream... "where is that manual?!?"
ReplyDeleteAnd days where I feel like I've got it all figured out.
Enjoy the crazy ride of mommy-dom!