Friday, 1 May 2015

Waiting for a Period

My official test day is today - and unsurprisingly, it's still a BFN. Another failed cycle, no miracles here.
It's always crap to see a negative after IVF, but it's even worse when it's after using the last of your embryos. There's no quick jumping into another frozen transfer, there's nothing else to try. Instead, it's back to waiting around for specialist appointments, for further testing {hello, blood panels}, for a new period, and for a new protocol. Waiting is agony. What I wouldn't give to just be able to try again next month, without the $$$ and the jabs and the hormones.
Anyway... now we wait.
A friend of mine, who is one of the loveliest & strongest people that I have the pleasure to know, put this up as a profile picture this week. I loved it so much that I saved it straight away. 
I feel like it sums up our journey right now too - and for now, it's all I've got - at least until we get a new plan in place.

4 comments:

  1. I hope you never give up! You're little girl is beautiful. My story will end with me giving up trying for a baby. But I can't wait to see a new addition to your beautiful family.

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  2. I'm sorry for this recent failure. It's so frustrating to want something so much and have little control over whether you get it. It really shouldn't have to be this way. We're here with you on this journey and I hope the next plan put in place brings your baby #2.

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  3. I'm so sorry about this cycle not working out for you Aly..I really hope the next fresh cycle proves to be better for you. I have same FS as you, and I didn't have any success in embies frozen on day1 either, they all seemed to be pretty low quality ones. So for my next fresh cycle, I pushed about getting an earlier retrieval, although only 3 follicles looked good (and only 3 survived till CD5 in the end). Although I don't have all positive news to share yet, I got positives pregnancy tests out of 2 of those 3, with 1 still in freezer. I know everyone's story is different, but just wanted to share that the quality for me between Day5 and Day1 freeze were such a vast difference.

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  4. Hit after hit, and you just keep fighting. I hope you win this fight soon though.

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