Monday, 8 February 2016

FET #8 - Beta is Tomorrow

To say I am absolutely petrified about tomorrow's beta blood draw is an understatement.

The pee sticks look okay - but then, they did last time too. It's hard to hope, epecially since they started out so faint this time too. I do have some darkening sticks from the last few days, though. The thing is, my morning sticks are always fainter than the afternoons. It seems to go against every bit of pee stick literature that you can find on the internet... but there it is.

I haven't used any pregnancy tests today. I figure that whatever will be, will be. In 24+ hours, we'll have an answer.
I should know better than to get my hopes up, but I can't help it.. they're up. And I know they could all come crashing down by tomorrow's beta results, but I am just trying so keep the faith.

I want this more than I can put into words. To get a chance at carrying another baby, to hope that this one might turn out different. Fifth time lucky, perhaps? Could this be our rainbow, rainbow, rainbow baby?
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12 comments:

  1. aeep8 February 2016 at 12:32

    I've followed (lurked) your journey to the point I wish I could give you a goofy hug, remind you how you said no pee sticks and say if you're not ready to have high hopes I have a ton for you! Best wishes and please do allow yourself some joy. All the best.

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  2. Britt8 February 2016 at 12:43

    Crossing everything. Stick tight, Olaf!

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  3. jess8 February 2016 at 13:17

    oh I can see how you're hoping because the pee sticks do look promising. Fingers crossed and good luck.

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  4. Anonymous8 February 2016 at 13:34

    Sending you all the rainbows I can.
    Thinking of you and your family.

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  5. Cassie Dash8 February 2016 at 14:49

    It would be hard not to hope with pee sticks that look like that! Lots of luck and love to you!

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  6. Just T9 February 2016 at 01:09

    I think these sticks look very promising!

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  7. Feisty Harriet9 February 2016 at 03:17

    Oh, I really hope so!

    xox

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  8. Hapa Hopes9 February 2016 at 05:08

    Those sticks look awfully good. Thinking of you, Aly! Good luck!

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  9. Jess9 February 2016 at 05:30

    Oh, these look really promising. I have everything crossed for you guys. XO.

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  10. ~Kathryn~9 February 2016 at 07:35

    oh how i love how all your friends talk about you and your 'pee sticks'
    this time looks different to me (i'm no expert)
    but you know i have everything crossed for you
    good luck today
    love you
    xooxox

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  11. Anna9 February 2016 at 10:14

    Those sticks look good! I'm hoping so, so hard for you guys that this is the lucky one. All the fingers are crossed!

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  12. Anonymous9 February 2016 at 12:47

    I've followed your journey since Weddingbee. My fingers and toes are crossed for you all the way from Minnesota!

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