Friday, 13 May 2016

17 weeks + 6 days

We are still a house of sick over here - only this time it's ME that's down!
The doctor thinks it's either a really bad cold or a mild flu virus as I'm showing symptoms of both - but regardless, there's not a lot to do but keep hydrated and rest up. 
Still no real guaranteed baby movement, which is so frustrating. I'm worried about the baby being okay, I just want to feel something, anything! (Well, apart from belly rumbles and/or gas.)
I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling right now. I'm excited to be getting through the weeks, but then I freak out that I'm getting too far ahead of myself and should still be cautious. When am I 'supposed' to relax? When does this feel less like a hopeful dream & more like a reality?
I look at pictures of this little baby, I listen to calming music at night & I visualise what this little person might turn out like. G cuddles my belly and talks to the baby & I think about her finally getting a sibling, and it fills me with so many emotions. 
I'm scared that I want this so badly for all of us.

3 comments:

  1. Boo to being sick, hope you're on the mend soon. And I'm sorry there is so much worry about the baby, I felt the same way when I was pregnant with Riley, I wanted him so badly that I just so hoped it was all real.

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  2. It's so hard when your placenta is in the front. I didn't feel movement until after 21 weeks so try not stress too much.

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  3. Movement is such a personal thing - I didn't feel my first four until 20 or so weeks - all anterior (?) placentas in front, last one I finally felt movement at 18 or so weeks (still not especially early!), the only one of mine with the placenta in the proper place! So yes, I think that does make a difference. I've been reading your blog for a while, I'm so happy for you!

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